Let's bomb the hell :: Remember, remember, the velvet November


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Let's bomb the hell

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O.S.T. k tomu
http://youtu.be/yhnkD7YxJ1s
Year of no light
:)

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pekne. nepoznal som doteraz :)

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And what else the master of the underworld served me?

Pain and Disappointment

It happened three weeks ago and It took only 20 minutes, 2 rides down the hill and one longboard. At least I am still alive and my brainbox is still in one peace but my shoulder fixation isn't the right blessing , in fact it's total blasphemy in these summer days full of sun, joy and vertical smiles.

And what about the disappointment?
It's just another life experience I do regret and is connected to the "new" above. You could notice that I am the kind of creature that is not thinking and acting predictably.
Enslaved in this chaos and randomness I accidentally run into someone in last months and got lost in the persons mind. I got lost in mine too as you can see. I created ... We created an Illusion of something called relationship, but it is not. It's just a collision of two people finding their way trough life. Predetermination of this is a pure damnation unless someone will do something stupid enough and causes the ways to merge into one. It's like some complex retarded riddle with out of the box solution.

well no one did ...

"...it's good-bye. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies."
J.Kerouac

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The first thing I heard was the coughing. I could't see trough the raining dust and the shades of grey and all in all i wear eyeglasses with the left lens shattered to pieces. That little synthetic furball is walking right in front of me. Really funny those robot like moves of Teddy. It is now exactly 4 months that we are on the road and it is the the last time I saw human being.We were in Prague and I wanted to get myself drown by jumping from Charles bridge. Few days before that the whole life ,I mean literally life on planet took some mysterious direction, suddenly there were no crowds in the streets. Just me. Try to look at it from my point of view. Every last mother fucker on the planet for some reason vanished.What the fuck? Maybe the whole turn of events means something to the universe. Maybe I jumped in some weirdo like doctor who parallel universe or maybe I am just caught in the labyrinth of one beings mind.And then I find myself being saved by a living teddy bear with eyepatch who looks just like a fucking pedobear.I doesnt even got a chance to kill myself.Seriously? Fuck that. So I was thinking hard what does that mean. And that little shitload of nanotechnology spits out that he is not alone, that there is a whole race of fucking pedobears and that they are building a spaceship to save their savaged planet or some sort of shit like that. So we stole or the right term would be 'took' ,no one cares anymore, a tank and hit the road (sometimes we really hit the road with the tank cannon). And now I am somewhere in deep forests of old nazi-land with that little friend of mine who could be the only link to find out what happened to all the people so I can try to manage and bring back those cunts so they can keep on fuck their brains out and reproduce themselves. I am no philantropist in case you were thinking that way, I just hate when I cannot fuck around with people.Now you can imagine how surprise I was when I heard a real human coughing.

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Right beside of the place of her slumber I found an Dianthus. A flower with really violent meaning. Horror like. It is told that Artemis tore out shepperd eyes when he frightened her quarry by playing an instrument. This is actually how I found her. Half naked in the stone cold water covered by fallen leaves. When I came closer I couldn't look into her eyes. Cause there were only holes. Tunnels to her soul. That scary stiffen face is haunting me in my dreams. Oh sorry, this is a dream and her face is haunting me when I am awake. I Grabbed her leg and started to drag her out of the stream bed. I havent realized yet that the woman I loved the most was maybe raped and suffered from violence commited with some sort of shit occult symbolism. And dead indeed. I was angry. I was lost. I was possesed with idea of finding that motherfucker and do to him what he did to her. I lined up the body. Gave her a kiss and started to walk in between the trees holding the white dianthus.

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Like Nietzsche said "When you look into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you."
Imagine standing on the edge of a floating boat. Everywhere around you endless plain of water.
All the cities lifelessly lying on the bottom of the ocean. All the memories and history of humankind in decay. Rotten bodies that couldn't escape the inevitable. You are asking yourself that how many lifes bound to the the beautiful moments and miracles were lost. You look down, you cannot see the floor, the loneliness is reaching up to your soul. The feeling that you might be the last one is emerging from your deepest sense of self-realization. All the technology, religion and spirituality is gone.
Close your eyes and make one last step. Slow descend to join the rest.
And the abyss starts to embrace you and you live the last thoughts you have.
Looking into the eye of blue whale that passes by.
The moment she realizes that you might be the last human still breathing. It slowly fades away. The sillhouetes of monuments once called cities are levitating in the darkness. Submarines, airplanes, cars.
Silence.
Now, you are dancing with the Death. Waltz of torn apart shadows of past interwoven by your most precious memories. The sun is shining, you smile, everybody smiles. The grass is greener, The light is brigther. You come to the closure with yourself, with your world, with your life and in the end with the abyss.
Gently hitting the bottom.
You slowdive.

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Well, here I am. Floating like shit in a swimming pool. I couldn't even imagine how painful can sun be. I am breathing the fresh air watching the blue skies. Teddy floats beside me.
"I am thirsty you little mother fucker!"
"Ho ho ho slow down man, why that inappropriate language. You fucking dwelled for a decade on the bottom of the ocean and you still hold a grudge above me."
"Of course I do! You tried to fucking use me as fuel."
"Well that didn't go as I expected" Teddy giggled.
"So what now?" I asked Teddy.
"We wait."
"For what?"
"You'll see."

The night sky was a brilliant star orchestra. It was the dynamo of universe. I saw some meteors to pass by and I wished I could die. To be normal as anybody, to have that peaceful slumber in oblivion. I wondered if I am still capable of summoning the dead. Probably yes that skill isn't going anywhere, at least not while I am alive. That shit works like quantum manifestation I could probably summon some god if I wanted to ,but how the fuck should I do that when I am in the middle of nowhere. I am tired. I am tired from all of this. My endless life, my emotions ,all the regressions I had to make to become a better person. This life sucks. I remember now. I was getting off the tram at I.P.Pavlova, full of sadness and anger. I could not bear you left me. I missed you so much that my whole existence started to be something else. That monster in me was awakening. And that moment changed everything. I started to run. I hit few fellow citizens. And in the second when I was falling down on the floor they all disappeared. You disappeared. I killed you, I wiped you from the universe just to be more miserable. I created whole new timeline where there was new you. And then again I had to find you death in the river. It's some sort of karmic irony. I cannot have everything I just got that fucking immortality and skill to bring braindead people back to life. You are probably asking yourself why the fuck didn't I bring you back. It didn't work it was the price I had to pay.You had to sustain in my memory, your eyes your smell and smile will always take me back to the hazy sunday mornings.

Suddenly there were no stars there was only majestic humming Zeppelin.
"That's our ride buddy. Let's go!"

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Tapestry.Those little mother fuckers were lining redwhite and black shit in their vessel.

Teddy bears were like nazis.
Hakenkreuz all around the Zeppelin.

And I thought to myself what a wonderful world ... well It is not.
I remember the shit and the downfall when I was in concentration camp.
The abuse and the pain I had to take.

I secretly killed a guy named Gruber. His heart collapsed when I drained him, he was in undescribeable pain.
And then I suffocated the other officers.

They were screaming

You call me many names and metaphors, "Descent of Inanna to the Netherworld,", "below Heaven, Earth, and Pontus" and “Gimokodan” .

But some of you rejected me and I became a wandering soul.

And many of those who sleep in the dust of the earth shall awake,
Some to everlasting life,
Some to shame and everlasting contempt.

I am your "waiting room".

עולם הבא the ascending soul being pure unfnished piece of unborn

And in your world ...

my name is Hell.

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... when we walk, the ghosts all around.
You wonder why I am so immortal. Why the dianthus was my weakest moment, and why I saw those little mother fuckers. It is ...

Being fifteen. I loved the Teddy. It was the only safe not moral being that could understand me.
It was my symbol. My power to the self-esteem, my freedom...

... but that where you live in. Not me. I woke up in something called "Massengrab"

Little diamonds lying on the floor. Its like everybody trusted the idea of being showered.
They were showered.

By my feet I was dragged to a deep hole to be burned.
Smell, I cannot take. My sisters I created trough lifetime, my brothers I shall admire.

I The Moment when they were all dead.

In the stink of jews burning alive, I woke up. With hate and in with the urge what I am going to do the people I hate. Suddenly it doesn't matter, my wife, my children were killed long time ago. Anybody could call me "Hell". But if you do? It will fucking tear your head apart.

With my half burned hand I grabbed the edge. Pull myself up. I stared to the eyes of a SS officer. I saw in the quantum how he killed people without any hesitating. But ... black and stupid, I reached my hand to him.
"In you there is a pitty I don't want to reach. There is this super stupidness I want to kill. I forgive you so you shall die." Very surprised officer kneeling down on his knees and receiving the execution.

I proceeded. They had no Idea about what is happening, to what I am.

The jews were running in panic all around when I was touching the officers taking bullets and sucking their lives instantly.

Fear me!!
I am coming for you to Wevelsburg.

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When I opened my eyes I couldn't see a scintilla of light. Desoriented and with no clue where I am. The only thing that I knew with certainity is that I am sitting on bed. Not that kind of bed you coppulate or sleep on but ... seabed, to be precise I was sitting on a fucking ocean floor and having fucking partial amnesia.
Sparkles of memories started to burst to my mind. I remembered I tattoed some symbol on my forearm. It was a formula twisted to form some sort of occult symbol. You know like the ones you see on crypts made by those goth mother fuckers that have no idea what they're doing. My head was in intense pain. Of course it was when you think about it. The pressure on ocean floor was crushing my whole body.
I tried to move, but I realize that it was like trying to move a dead elephant. So I just sat there, alone in the dark.

It started slowly. First there was an ambient light. The light uncovered some tip of a triangular shaped stone that slightly turned into a wing.
"Holy shit!!!" I thought to myself.
I was sitting in front of an majestic sculpture of angel. He looked like he wanted to giveme hug and than cover me with his gigantic spreaded wings to protect me from some sort of evil. I don't know why but it reminded me of song from band I used to know back in year 2001 the song was called Pyramid Song and the lyrics were actually quite precise about what was happening.

I jumped in the river and what did I see?
Black-eyed angels swam with me

I gazed into his eyes and he started to be somehow familiar to me or at least his face. I realized my amnesia started to withdraw because it suddenly kicked me.I knew exactly where I was and what happened.

The light got much more intense. I could see vaguely that around me were falling flares. It was like ocean revolted against the darkness. I could see the towers of past, buildings from which once the mighty dominated the world. The scenery was much more the same, it hasn't changed since I was falling into the abyss. Someone or something was comming. I could clearly see the scuplture stand with engraved quote that stated:

Faithless is he who says farewell when the road darkens. J.R.R.Tolkien

Well that is beautiful ,but not helping ,especially not at this circumstances. The flares hit the bottom and when I stared at the angel there was this glitch in my view. It was approaching me. I was shocked. It was that little fluffy nanotech mother fucker Teddy.

"Aah you son of a bitch!" I waved my arms.
This had to be the most funniest and stupidest scenes in history of human kind. Not that none of us was human ,but the fact that we cannot speak to each other when stuck somewhere on the bottom of the ocean. Teddy was just looking at me (with that one eye he had), emitting little bubbles from that gob of his. He looked tired and like a pirate, yes fucking tired pirate, but fluffy and bit like a cartoon character I guess. The only thing that he was missing was "tummy symbol" that insignia that those little fucking bears from "Care Bears" had. He raised his paw and in that moment I knew what I had to do.With my other hands palm I covered the symbol on my forearm. Started to concentrate and I manifested

לעזוב
which in hebrew means something like "let go". Suddenly the misery, despair and helplessness faded away. I was no longer tied to what happened to humanity, to what happened to me to what was the cause I jumped into the abyss in the first place. I was free. I reached the perfection and started to ascend back to the higher altitude.