citam The Way of the Psychonaut od Stanislava Grofa a toto je teda riadna temnotka:

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This mechanism can be observed very clearly in experiential work. In holotropic states, the contentof the experience, the perception of the environment, and the behavior of the client are determined ingeneral terms by the COEX system that dominates the session and, more specifically, by the layer ofthis system that is momentarily emerging into consciousness. All the characteristics of COEX systemscan best be demonstrated by a practical example. I have chosen, for this purpose, Peter, a 37-year-oldtutor who had been intermittently hospitalized and unsuccessfully treated in our department in Pragueprior to his psychedelic therapy.At the time we began with the experiential sessions, Peter could hardly function in his everyday life.He was almost constantly obsessed with the idea of finding a man with certain physical characteristics,preferably dressed in black clothes. He wanted to befriend this man and tell him about his urgent desireto be locked in a dark cellar and be exposed to various diabolic physical and mental tortures. Unable toconcentrate on anything else, he wandered aimlessly through the city, visiting public parks, lavatories,bars, and railroad stations searching for the “right man.”He succeeded on several occasions to persuade or bribe various men who met his criteria to promiseor do what he asked for. Having a special gift for finding persons with sadistic traits, he was almostkilled twice, several times seriously hurt, and once robbed of all his money. On those occasions, wherehe was able to experience what he craved, he was extremely frightened and actually strongly disliked thetortures. In addition to this main problem, Peter suffered from suicidal depression, impotence, andinfrequent epileptiform seizures.Reconstructing his history, I found out that his major problems started at the time of hisinvoluntary employment in Germany during World War II. The Nazis used people brought toGermany from occupied territories for work in places threatened by air raids, such as foundries andammunition factories. They referred to this form of slave labor as Totaleinsetzung. At that time, two SSofficers repeatedly forced him at gunpoint to engage in their homosexual practices. When the war wasover, Peter realized that these experiences created in him a strong preference for homosexual
intercourse experienced in the passive role. This gradually changed into fetishism for black male clothesand finally into the complex obsessive-compulsive masochistic behavior described above.Fifteen consecutive psychedelic sessions revealed a very interesting and important COEX systemunderlying his problems. In its most superficial layers were Peter’s more recent traumatic experienceswith his sadistic partners. On several occasions, the accomplices he recruited actually bound him withropes, locked him in a cellar without food and water, and tortured him by flagellation andstrangulation, according to his wish. One of these men hit him on his head, bound him with a string,and left him lying in a forest after stealing his money.Peter’s most dramatic adventure involved a man who claimed he had just the kind of cellar Peterwanted in his cabin in the woods and promised to take him there. When they were traveling by train tothis man’s weekend house, Peter was struck by his companion’s strange-looking bulky backpack. Whenthe latter left the compartment and went to the bathroom, Peter stepped up on the seat and checkedthe suspicious baggage. He discovered a complete set of murder weapons, including a gun, a largebutcher knife, a freshly sharpened hatchet, and a surgical saw used for amputations. Panic-stricken, hejumped out of the moving train and suffered serious injuries. Elements of the above episodes formedthe superficial layers of Peter’s most important COEX system.A deeper layer of the same system contained Peter’s memories from the Third Reich. In the sessionswhere this part of the COEX constellation manifested, he relived his experiences with the homosexualSS officers in detail, with all the complicated feelings involved. In addition, he relived several othertraumatic memories from World War II and dealt with the entire oppressive atmosphere of this period.He had visions of pompous Nazi military parades and rallies, banners with swastikas, ominous gianteagle emblems, scenes from concentration camps, and many others.Then came layers related to Peter’s childhood, particularly those involving punishment by hisparents. His alcoholic father was often violent when he was drunk and used to beat him with a largeleather strap. His mother’s favorite method of punishing him was to lock him into a dark cellar withoutfood for long periods of time. Peter recalled that throughout his childhood, she always wore blackdresses; he did not remember her ever wearing anything else. At this point, he realized that one of theroots of his obsession seemed to be craving suffering that would combine elements of punishmentinflicted on him by his parents.However, that was not the whole story. As we continued with the sessions, the process deepened andPeter confronted the trauma of his birth with all its biological brutality. This situation had all theelements that he expected from the sadistic treatment he was so desperately trying to receive: darkenclosed space, confinement and restriction of physical movement, and exposure to extreme physicaland emotional tortures. Reliving the trauma of his birth finally resolved his difficult symptoms to suchan extent that he could once again function in life."