sometimes i feel like i don´t have a problem
sometimes i feel like my only friend
all the time i feel like i need a friend
everytime i have a friend by me, i feel gifted

but i need love, not more than friend, but i need it
i feel it inside
i have a lot of it, great amount of love, attention ... everything
i can invest all my feelings, all my life to somebody
but he is not able to "use" it
what a shitty situation, heh?
i don´t want to play in this episode
it hurts me
it really does
my heart is like one big hole
my heart has gone with you

i miss everything and when i´m here, at "our" place it´s not possible for me to understand that we are not together
when i wake up, you´re still in my mind, in my heart in my everything

i´d like to forget,
i´d like to leave somewhere far from this place
is it possilbe to live on mars?

i´ll try it



i´d like to say, that i really appreciate help that my friends give me now. and everytime when i need it, especially to noele and nix :* i love you both