i see
that i shouldn't expect to be caught
that if i jump
i jump to fall
and fall to learn to fly
or be crushed by my inability to find my wings
and i suppose i understand
but the words i heard spilling from your lips
never spoke of this

i see
that maybe what all this really is
is that you don't know what else to do
and it's easier to run
far away from the things
that make you concerned
make you care
and i suppose i understand
but i don't want to believe this is the case
and i don't remember that being in the fineprint

i see
that perhaps you can't be bothered
or maybe i'm too much, too fast
turning away is easier than loosing a piece of self
i guess you don't want to hlod me
as i cry
and i suppose i understand
but i keep reaching for you anyway
in my dreams that are almost out of reach

i see
that my tears are left on my cheeks
no one to wipe them away
or smooth the worry from my brow
that i am watching my body fall apart
and there is no one
to hold my hand
no one
to cover my eyes
and kiss the wound
to make them better

and i suppose i understand
but i don't want to believe

IT COULD HAVE BEEN WORSE,
BUT IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER