my own little special plan<br/>
the voices they say a lot of things yes they do, yes they most certainly do my dear... so what if the world is a final whisper of my mind screaming into the forest... the wide forest... keeping the weird things away from the future. but the past says things differently... it has other voices that say other things and these things aren't pleasent.. the voices are not your friends and your friends don't have voices... keep your friends at a distance and keep your enemies in your head... so you can control them or they control you... do the voices control you? it is a question that only the voices can awnser oh yes... voices... noises... whatever... keep them away... i didn't i fell i screamed and i blushed before the allmighty noise of god itself... because it was true.. what he said was true... i didn't do it by myself he told me yes... he told me to do it... god told me to do it... so i stand still... he watches me oh yes he watches me from somewhere else... he is not here no he isn't he is somewhere else and i like it because i don't like people watching me when i know it... this way i don't know it and i'm happy... he's watching me, i don't know it and he's my lord he's my messiah... i want him... her whatever... he isn't any sex he's just it and it has the power to make me dream about the future i like... go to sleep... go to sleep and forget about things happening in your mind... dream about the honey and the sugar and the coffee... keep your self awake to see the coffee and the sugar and the pain and the pain and the pain... go to sleep to see the pain to watch it develop into something else... pain develops into obsession and obsession keeps you awake and awakening makes you obsessed... everything can be defined in circles and circles can be defined in points and points can be defined in coordinates and coordinates are defined in your mind... your mind controls everything and everything is in your mind...try to control it... that's the future... your mind...keep it safe.. keep it off bounds... don't like flowers they are bad for your health... keep yourself niserable so you can objectivly understand the universe keep yourself dead so you can understand life... life itslef is pain so keeeping yourself alive means that you like pain yes you do yes you do my friend... pain is pleasure pleasure is life life is pain... get over it... all ends in death and death is the only solution of your pain life pleasure pain pain... keep your pain safe it is the only thing eternal... keep it safe... the only thing that lasts please please please please please please keep it safe... please...
feel it
feel the pain